I made a slight detour in the timeline for my thesis. Well, not really slight, I imagined I would be done right now with this 100 page theoretical thorn in my side. But I’m not—not yet anyway. I’ve been at this grad school thing for almost three years now—not stopping for air—knocking down credits one-quarter at a time while working fulltime, balancing community service commitments, answering all of my curious 6 year old’s questions, falling in love (for real) with my husband, having another baby, getting married, and trying to keep my sanity.
Now I’m not offering random excuses for my slight and short-winded academic detours, but the reality of life and all its myriad complexities are distracting me from my studying and my “academic writing”. It’s funny because I get stuck with my academic writing, but my other writing and blogging I could do all day long. It’s funny how that works.
Anyway, the truth is I would rather be living life than in front of a computer keeping track of theorists and “referenced used” citations. Even with the array of life circumstances I described earlier, somewhere in the beginning of grad school I told myself that I could separate “real” life from my academic and writer’s life, and keep them all in their separate compartments. I don’t know what I was thinking. I expected to proceed business as usual, but everyday I find it more and more difficult to scoot up to my desk and bury myself in academic theories when life has so many other beautiful distractions.
I wonder–what it costs us to balance life in the midst of all the things we’re distracted by? How do we decide in each moment what is more important? What is fair or even possible?
So what happens now? Oh yes, the thesis. I just got distracted blogging. See…I’ve got it bad. As far as the thesis, let me get back to you on that.